I have never been the type to consider sex before marriage sinful or wrong, nor do I think that it takes away from the commitment of marriage once you have found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with and yet, after years of experience and trying many things I never thought I would even consider doing, let alone adore doing – I find myself seven days into a month long vow of celibacy…
Believe it or not, this was actually my idea… at the time, my choice was based more on me wanting to prove to my partner that I could actually survive without any sexual acts (yes, we have excluded passionate kissing here as well – what the hell was I thinking???) as well as simply challenging myself with something that I knew would not be easy to achieve – but now I see that this invisible chastity belt of pain and anguish is far more valuable than I imagined.
Still, I type this… tongue on the floor, panties in a knot, mind darting from one pornographic image to the next – desperately fantasizing about the beautifully wrapped handle of our bamboo cane tightly nuzzled between his fingers, that now sits lonely in a corner calling my name each and every single day as I open the front door after a hard days work… torture? Oh you have no idea!
It is now, at my weakest, that I ask all of you to please Be Obscene for me while I wait for the chance to make up for lost times on our wedding night… I dare you, I implore you, challenge you and think of you – make me proud ladies and gentlemen!!!